At Last

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I bought a new Mac (that’s a whole post waiting to be written and I need to work up to that one) and for the past few days, have been going through the process of switching all my stuff from my old Mac to this new sleek machine.

And I am resisting. Oh boy.

My old Mac IS … old. It is cracked, it’s missing a few teeth here and there, it has many, many miles and it shows. But I love it. And I am not one to “upgrade” stuff casually (ever seen my phone?)

But it was time and I knew it. So here I am. Doing it. One folder at a time, one little thing that I didn’t know mattered at a time. Gently.

A couple of days ago, I decided to take one significant step and listen to Pandora on the new computer. I took a breath, brought up Pandora (which took milliseconds) and hooked up the cable that leads to the speakers. It was the day Etta James died and at “At Last” started to fill the room. Ah…. my eyes closed and my hips started to move. But WAIT!!! Only one set of speakers were singing. What the heck?

HA. I knew it. I knew it. This new shiny computer is nowhere near as good as my old computer. It only plays one side of speakers. Ha!

Tanissa saw the wheels turning in my mind. She could smell the weird satisfaction that was rising up in me. All she said is “Mom, I am pretty sure this is not the computer.”

But it was. I knew it was. Shiny and with a back lit keyboard and the latest operating system (“Lion”, it’s called) and completely unable to give me three minutes of Etta James.

So, I called Apple Care. And I told them. I told them about how my brand new computer only used one set of speakers whereas my crackly old one could play the hell out of “At Last.”

And the guy listened. He was very nice. When I was done, he cleared his throat and said: “let’s go ahead and try a couple of things, here.” Ok. “First, can you plug in some earphones and tell me if you hear out of both ears?” All right. I can do that. Get the earphone, plug them in, click on some music. Yup. Both ears.  “Thank you. Now, let’s go ahead and try the speakers again. This time, let’s have you wiggle the plug a little bit.” Nope. Only one speaker (I knew he could hear “the weird satisfaction” in my voice. I could hear it too and was a little unsettled by it). “Hmm…. I tell you what. Let’s have you try it on your old Mac, just to be sure.” I thought I’d indulge him – and show him how well the whole thing worked with my old buddy, here. Show him how until this new machine, I could blast the heck out of my speakers. Except… I couldn’t. Cable into old Mac, Pandora full on … and only one speaker. Damn.

Right then I knew. And right then, he knew. My guess is he knew a few steps before then. But he was so very nice. And even at that point, when he knew that this whole thing had nothing to do with the computers, he was willing to stick with me. He started: “‘mam, how about if you step behind your stereo and you and I check out a few connections?” Oh man.

I quickly thanked him and told him that I thought I could take it from there. As soon as we were off the phone, I took a look and sure enough, only one cable was plugged in. The other one just dangled there, and I swear it was smiling.

It is so darn easy to make assumptions; to assume a cause and effect. Especially if it will serve our story. New computer, no sound. Must be the new computer, huh? It is so easy to decide that whatever is going on has to do with this new thing / person when really, it’s most likely just us, doing the same old thing (in this case, I am thinking my cat and her love for playing with wires)

Hmmmm. How easy it is to ascribe responsibility to “the new thing” when really, it’s still the same old thing going on (I think my cat likes to play with the wires).

Well, my new computer and I are getting to be friends. To tell you the truth, it’s pretty awesome. And for the first time in a good while, I am able to type this to you this morning, without double wiggling the “O” key and without having a mouse attached to make up for a beat up track pad.

And while listening to Etta James. At last.

 

 

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20 min. Mexican Corn Soup w/ Cheese & Chilies

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Every time I make this soup (which I have adapted to make it a quickie from The Frog Commissary Cookbook), I am surprised by how fast it goes from thought to table. Sometimes, I think that this time, it’s not going to taste as good, as though all the previous times were pure luck (I mean … 20 minutes??) but nope. It’s just great.

Another thing I love about it is that it is very easy to always have these ingredients on hand so you can whip it up at a moment’s notice.

I made it last night and since it is another cozy day of winter, I thought you might enjoy some too.

Feel free to play with the proportions.

20 min. Mexican Corn Soup w/ Cheese & Chilies

3-4 C frozen corn
1 + C water
Butter
Small onion, chopped
Salt
Pepper
Tabasco (or other hot sauce)
Small can fire roasted green chilies
3 C half and half
1/2 pound cheddar or Monterey Jack, shredded

Saute the onions in the butter until soft.

Meanwhile, process the corn and the water together in a blender or food processor until partially blended
Add to the onions
Cook over medium heat, stirring
(At that point, I sometimes use my hand blender to give the soup a smoother texture)
Add the chilies, salt, pepper, Tabasco
Add the half and half
Slowly melt in the cheese (or keep half to serve at the table on top of each bowl)

Voila!

I serve it with crusty French bread and butter and for me, the gluten free (and delicious) option of Juanita’s tortilla chips.

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My fridge or my Underwear Drawer?

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All right, so it is very possible that I have already written about this and if so, you are warmly invited to skip this post. But boy oh boy I need to write about it some more and so here I go. And please pardon the heated tone. I have pushable buttons too, you know.

I grew up in France. I grew up in France where unless you are preparing a meal, you have no reason to open the fridge. Ever. Ok, maybe for a glass of juice at “gouter” time but that’s it. (“Gouter” – which looks terrible written in English, and funny enough, also means “to taste” – is the meal we have between lunch and dinner, around 4. It often consists of bread and chocolate. It is a good meal and no, it is not a “snack.” More info  on that right here. )

So the fridge is a tool, a tool used to prepare these meals. It is not some weird form of boredom-dulling, it is not something that we open and stare into at random times.

It is where we keep the food we use to prepare one of four daily meals.

And by “we,” I mean: we who prepare the meals. Which most of the time does not mean our kids. And definitely never, ever, EVER includes our kids’ friends.

You see where I’m going with this?

Mostly, I really love my kids’ friends. They are an eclectic bunch, a bunch of interesting people with cool ideas and who are starting to lead really cool lives. If one of them was to take me in when I got too old to take care of myself, I would probably be in good hands (and yes, I do think about that occasionally. Don’t you?)

I love it when they walk through the door, I love it when they fill the house with their raw energy, I love it when they huddle by the fireplace and talk, I love it when they spend the night. And I love spending hours at the stove making them crepes on a Sunday morning. Really, I also love it when we all agree to prepare a meal together (or when they offer to prepare a meal on their own), in which case, the whole kitchen is open game.

BUT. When, barring the above exceptions, one of them walks into the kitchen and opens my fridge … I go nuts inside.

Something wakes up in me and makes me want to pounce. And scratch. And yell “What the F#*%& do you think you are you doing???” Which I’m sure would make for an unsettling contrast to my “Good morning honey, what kind of crepe would you like?”

When someone who does not live in the house opens my fridge, my French upbringing comes up to the surface and I feel … wildly violated. I feel crazy. I feel the way most of you would feel if you walked in your house and some of your kids’ friends were going through your underwear drawer. Actually, as I write this, I am shocked to notice that really, I would rather they did go through my underwear drawer.

So, yeah. There you have it. Cultural pains.

Last night, my daughter had a few friends over. Within minutes they were all in the kitchen and I could hear the fridge open and close. I didn’t move. A while later, I walked into the kitchen and found some leftover cooked potato skin on the counter. “What is this from?” I asked, sounding oh so sweet. One of the guys – whom I had never met before – replied: “Oh, sorry. I forgot to throw it away. It’s from one of the baked potatoes I just ate.” And with that, walked towards the garbage can, really respectful and all. I could feel Tanissa’s eyes on me. She knows. She knows and she is not interested in placating my French upbringing one bit. As my kids tell me often: “Mom, you live in America, now.” But she knew. And feeling the dark cloud building within me and threatening to burst all over the bright yellow walls of the kitchen, she explained: “My mom grew up in France and she doesn’t like people going through our fridge. But she is adapting. It’s ok.”

Am I adapting? I haven’t stabbed anyone with a fork yet, so I guess I am.

But this morning. I have a strong itch to post something on the fridge, right above the handle… Maybe a picture of me in a lacy thong with the words “Unless you feel comfortable opening my underwear drawer, please don’t open my fridge.”

Yeah. That should work well.

 

 

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Weirdness

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Two nights ago, I slept terribly. I “woke up” more tired than when I had gone to bed and all day yesterday, I could tell something was off.

Finally last night, a phone conversation helped me figure out of what was going on.

I am super sensitive to “weirdness.” What kind of weirdness? The kind where I know I have somehow betrayed my authenticity. God, I hate that. And it can be so easy to do. So easy to miss it when we do it, too.

Now, we are not talking about anything huge, here. Or maybe we are. What had happened?

Well, I had oscillated. I had oscillated between reacting to a situation the way that was “popular” (and easy) and the way that was “my true me.” I had not spoken up. The oscillation was very small and really, barely noticeable. But my body noticed. And it wouldn’t let me sleep.

So I had to fix it. I had to say a few words, plan on saying a few more later on and do that until a very subtle shift happened. Until “order” was restored. Until my outside world matched my inside world.

Last night, I slept like a baby.

 

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Post Nia Dance Gluten-Free Buckwheat Pancakes

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Back from my Nia dance class, I needed a bit of something – both in my tummy and for my hands to create. While my friend Erin  talked with to me, I looked up a recipe for gluten-free buckwheat pancakes and whipped up (literally) these scrumptious little guys. They took just a few minutes and were oh so satisfying – and fluffy.

And yes, if buckwheat isn’t your thing, you may want to pass. Me, I just love it, it reminds me of being a little kid, it reminds me of rich, fertile dirt too – which, strangely enough, I really like.

Gluten Free Buckwheat Pancake Recipe

1 cup of buckwheat flour
1/4 tsp. baking soda
2/3tsp. baking powder
pinch of sea salt
1 tablespoon maple syrup
1 1/4 cup of milk
1 tablespoon of butter, plus more butter for cooking
1 egg

Whisk together the flour, baking soda, powder and salt.

Melt the butter in a small pan, allow to cool.

Crack the egg open, holding over a bowl. Toss the egg yolk between the two shell halves, and let the white fall in to the bowl. Add the egg yolk, maple syrup and butter to the milk, whisk to combine the liquids.

Pour the liquid mix in to the dry ingredients. Use a large spoon to thoroughly combine all ingredients. Add more milk if the mixture seems to thick. You want it to flow relatively slowly, but easily from a spoon.

Whisk up the egg white until it is just set and relatively solid. Gently fold this egg white in to the pancake mix until just combined. If you mix too much here then you will loose the fluffiness of the pancakes.

Heat up your pan, and rub the end of a butter stick over the cooking surface. When the butter is hot, pour in a scant 1/4 cup of batter. Cook this over medium heat until holes form in the top of the pancake, and the top looks almost set. Flip the pancake, and cook on this side for 15-30 seconds longer.

Thank you, Matt for this bit of delight. I am glad I found your site.

 

 

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